2 Years Ago and the Beginning of Tough Conversations

2 years ago yesterday JADON was given to us for FOREVER! It is an amazing, mind blowing day.

But, at the same time, it was a rough, heartbreaking day. 2 years ago, he also left the arms of his foster mother, Rosalyn, who had cared for him since birth. I knew it was heartbreaking and tragic at the time when he watched her walk out the door with unbelievable strength and when he cried 3 hours in mourning. This year my heart is again sad for Rosalyn and Jadon, but in a deeper way this year.

This year, I have a 6 month old biological daughter who’s been in my arms since birth. She is only 2 weeks younger than Jadon was when his family changed for the 2nd time in his small life. My daughter knows us, wants us, needs us. We are all her heart has ever known. I realize in a new way this year, how my son’s heart was broken 2 years ago. I realize in a new way the heartbreak of a mother who left the child she had bonded to for 6 months.

Adoption IS beautiful, wonderful, glorious, magnificent and special. But it is also tough, heart-wrenching, hard, difficult and traumatizing.

Please pray with me that we can reconnect with Rosalyn. We had email contact with her at first, but have not heard from her since Jadon’s first birthday, when she mailed Jadon a sweet love letter. I want to be able to tell her and show her how INCREDIBLE this little man is!

Please also pray for Jadon’s heart. While I believe he has healed as much as possible in the past 2 years, he has a lifetime of healing to do. Last night we read a book about Guatemala. He’s gained an interest in the word whenever we talk about his first country.  He also smiles when he says “Guatemayah!” in a way that I know his heart is making a connection. When we were praying just before he went to sleep I asked him if he wanted to pray for Rosalyn, who is one of his mamas in Guatemala. The look in his eyes brings tears to mine today. It was a look of complete confusion. I didn’t really expect it at this age, but he definitely knows I am his mama and for me to connect the word to someone else was baffling to him. I caught a glimpse of how difficult the road is before us. To explain to a child the realities and beauties of his adoption is a huge job. A job that I am honored to have but one I do not take lightly.

For those of you that are concerned that I am looking at this “negatively,” I promise the next few days will be FULL of JOY!!! Many families choose to make a celebration of the day their adopted child was put in their arms. Since that day was so difficult for us, we choose to celebrate the day we traveled as a family to the United States together. That day for us is the 22nd of August. All throughout this week we are talking about and celebrating Guatemala, then on Saturday we are going to have a BIG Guatemalan Fiesta! So, stay tuned and I’ll share the celebration with you!

I apologize my blog has been so drab lately! We moved our pictures to an external hard drive which has not been connected since the move. If you stick with me, our blog will once return to the glory days of full color pictures, and maybe I’ll even learn how to download video!!!!

Thanks for walking with us.